Paradox

"Hubungan dengan sesama itulah yang menjadikan hidup berarti, memuaskan, dan menyenangkan (ay.7-12)"

Hmm well said..

For months, I've been sharing my struggles in any occasions with so many people. Yeah, I know they care of me. Giving a time to listen and pray. Even with tears in their eyes. I really appreciate it. So much. I know community in Christ is important since we are one in Christ. So, I understand that friends is a need. Oh, I'd love to say them as a family.

However, in the other side, I'm in the middle of understanding that Son have to experience separation with Heavenly Father in order that fulfillment of salvation."Eloi Eloi lama sabakthani" The Son cried. He have to feel loneliness. No one standing together besides Him. No one of His disciples even give themselves to die together at Calvary. Peter denied Him three times. Judas sold Him.

Seperti dua sisi mata uang yang tak terpisahkan.
Satu sisi adalah benar bahwa manusia diciptakan supaya ada orang di sampingnya.
Tapi, di sisi lainnya Kristus harus mengalami keterpisahan dengan semua yang dekat dengannya supaya penggenapan itu diselesaikan.

I just feel so lonely in such a couple of months.
(I don't mean that I reject everyone here. Kinda like I'm starving)

Thank you for everything. Ah, it doesn't mean that I want to end my life hahahahah... Just wanna say thank you and I want to pay all of you in my prayer.