The Lonely Crowd

"Sin destroyed the perfect harmony of the universe. The relationship of man with God and of human beings with each other was fractured. Man now knows that he is alone. His aloneness is no longer an experience only of solitude but also of deprivation. The human companionship, which in the divine plan was the answer to man's aloneness, no longer suffices. Disobedience ruined it. His aloneness has another dimension which is an experience of pain - a pain called loneliness."

Elisabeth Elliot - The Path of Loneliness

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Sebuah pemberontakan terhadap rancangan kesatuan Allah. A pain called loneliness. It suits me pretty well. I broke those bonds. Yet, I still don't want to reconcile. Dan dosa ini semakin memuakkan. How many times did You ask me to love each other? Yet, I denied it. Trust has already broken down into pieces.

I want to quit so bad. No more fake life please.

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"As I began to learn about suffering I learned that trust in those strong arms means that even our suffering is under control. We are not doomed to meaninglessness. A loving Purpose is behind it all, a great tenderness even in the fierceness."