Explanation

Slam the door. Boom!!

You know, right? Whenever you eat instant noodle you are not going to have cancer in a few days, but it may takes hundred years. (Oke, lebay). It looks like everything kinda useless. No matter how much effort that I've ever tried. In the end, I fell down. This time I couldn't handle it gently.

Actually, I hold grudges. And I'm waiting for paying everything back to them. At once.

There will be no love
There will be no forgiveness
There will be no trust

Well, someone says that the worst experience do you have is the closest one do you connect with. Maybe, I had not felt ready yet at that time. But still they took me into a deep fall.

Knowing that you were so fool to trust them as their bestfriend (they did first) after said something sweet to be heard is the most annoying thing at the moment. Later on, it changed rapidly. However, don't ever say that I have no effort to fix it. One of them was useless and another one ended without any forgiveness. The truth had spoken to me (something that was only me knowing what had really happened behind so that made me really hard to trust them again). In short, I didn't know if I was being loved by another or not, reconciliation was no need in forgiveness, and no share needed inside community.

Additionally, I really want to make them feel the fear of being killed by someone and being haunted by 'something'. IYKWIM. How come do you feel secure when you have traumatic experience in the past? Furthermore, while I was trying to get up from that, one of them got angry at me. Hey come on! You said that it was a serious problem but you were getting mad with me? At that time, I really really wanted to punch him right on his face.

Another story. Last week, somebody asked me to donate some money for leukemia patient under *** Human Care's supervision. I didn't think twice before giving some money to him. Moreover, he showed me a little book to convince me that was a real institution. Unfortunately, I was being hoodwinked. Disappointed (again). There are many people who suffer real leukemia outside! But you utilized my compassion for your own wealth, huh!?













HOW DARE YOOOUUUUUUU!!!!!!!!!!! :"""""""""""""""""




This is the deepest disappointment of trusting someone.



Talking about Strong community? Nonsense. It's more like a gibberish issue than a vision.
Whatever they may say about love, forgiveness, trust, health relationship, fellowship, and community, I will never believe it. No integrity.